ACIM AND A DOWNWARD SPIRAL: HELP! ????

My life has spiraled a horrible mess since I started exploring ACIM. It's like I'm slipping down a endless spiral and can't get out. I believed it would bring love, but instead, it's just making everything more confusing. The messages are challenging, and I feel like I'm falling apart. I don't know what to do anymore. Am I going crazy? I'm so sca